AT The Hop...

Fifty years ago, I graduated from High School!  WHAT?!  It's True.  And this coming Sept., I will be attending our fiftieth high school reunion.  Where did the time go?!
We are now in 2012!  A year I could not ever imagine seeing, considering that as a teen, I used to believe I would not live past age 18.  Well here I am.  And glad I am!

I usually write a post on New Years Eve, but this past one, I did not.  Too many things going on all around me.  I just needed some chill time.  And rather than feeling obligated to write something.. I chose to pass until today..Jan 2, 2012.

In 2010, I wrote about my intentions for 2011, and here is my Report Card:

First and foremost, I spent a great deal of the year on health and recovery from injuries sustained in a Car Accident, in March 2008, and a fall I had at work in March 2009... beginning to think I need to be more aware and alert, in the month of March. 
That took a great deal of time and energy plus I have a job.  No excuse.
Just what is.  And, I have been healing fairly well... I am told that  shoulder
injuries take some time to recover from, especially when Surgery is Involved.  Unless it is a matter of life or death, I will never ever have
shoulder surgery again.  A miserable experience.

I made great gains in learning to love and forgive myself and others. I can honestly say that today, I am much more aware of my Sense of Worthiness, than I was on NYE 2010.
I took care of matters of  My Heart.  I had been carrying a Crush for far
too long, and finally declared my feelings and no matter what happens,
I am free of the Secret Love in My Heart.  Free to love and be loved,
again.  I learned many things about myself and my past from carrying that torch and the angst that came with it.  I was not able to let it go until It became clear that what I was wanting from her, had  more to do with what
I did not get in my early childhood and adolescent years, than wanting her love and attention. 
Oh, to be clear, I would not pass up a relationship with her now.  I am thankful that I can feel Love for her, even if she does not feel the same for me.  I feel fortunate, that I have acquired skills to deal with and process, emotional issues from the past, that come up in the present and make me feel like I am crazy.

I have made sure that I get up and move more and watched my diet, and I am doing flex and strength exercises for my shoulders.  However, I have taken on the NiteOwl sleeping cycle, mainly because of my work hours, but/and feel the need to right myself in that area.

I did not buy a stationary bicycle.. I joined the "Y."  I haven't be going as much as I wanted, but it's a new year, and I intend to go more often because
it is good exercise for my knees.

I did not keep up with actually writing in my journal,  because it was more
handy to write in my notepad on my iphone.  But this NYE, I did write
in my journal and realized, once again why I love to commune with my inner-self, in that manner.  I went to the OfcSupplies Store,  the day before
NYE, and stocked up on my favorite Pens.

I did not blog at all since NYE 2010.  So I have alot of catching up to do.

I am in touch with the local organization that deals with children that have
been sexually and physically assaulted, and plan to do some volunteer speaking for them to raise awareness of their valuable services.

I will be joining ToastMasters again, to do what I love best, write and tell
my stories.

I am also flirting with the idea of getting back into singing classes, for better concerts in the shower.  Thinking the neighbors would really appreciate that!
I intend to see more daylight!  Soak up more Rays.  Talk to the Trees and
remember to use Soft-Eyes when I am out and about.  It makes every leaf
on a bush or tree POP.  It also makes me more aware of our connectedness. 

Speaking of connectedness. I read about an exercise to make myself more aware of this sense of oneness,  and I have been practicing it.
 Example:  An SUV drove right up to my car's rear bumper.
And I couldn't go any faster.  He swerved around my left, gave me an
ugly look.  Drove ahead in and out of the lanes.  Driving Crazy.
I said to myself,  "Crazy Driver, expletive." 
Then, I remembered the exercise and corrected myself,   "WAIT, there I go, again, driving Crazy!"
It came a lot easier, this time.  It takes the emotional charge out of the moment!  Less Stress!

For the moment, That's all I am thinking of doing in 2012... Although I do have  more ideas brewing!

I am really looking forward to attending our 50th Reunion.  I found some videos, tonight, of  AMERICAN BANDSTAND DANCERS.  My classmates and I, used to hurry to my house, after school to watch them on TV.  We learned to do the Philly Slow Dance and Swing Dance, by simply watching.  I learned to Follow and lead.  Since I am going
to my 50th Reunion, this year, and we are going to have a HOP,  Thought it would be fun to include some dance videos.

Dancing makes me Happy!

(Warning. I don't know how to attach pics and
videos.. so hoping they show up;)

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